Steamed Besan Ki Sabji or Gram flour Dumplings Stir fry like we may call it was a result of something gone wrong in my kitchen. It resembles muthia in many ways but yet is different. After that initial discovery, it is now a regular in my house. Gluten free and ready in 30 minutes. What else can one ask for !
I think the first time we had this steamed besan ki sabji was in February when mum was here. We wanted to make gatte and somehow when mum asked my house help to make a dough, she ended up making a batter. We wondered if we should add more besan and make tons of gatte to be used in pulaos and gravy later but somehow it wasn’t a very exciting idea.
I had pretty much left the running of the kitchen to mum that month. Honest confession – When mum is here that is what I do. Act like a spoilt brat and leave the kitchen to her. And just place my requests now and then.
Ok now that the confession is out of the way, let’s get ahead. Turns out mum had a brain wave and steamed the besan batter, cut it in pieces and stir fried them with basic spices. She served this with phulkas, a simple raita and we had the most amazing lunch that day. After that I have been kind of making this very often and it turned so matter of fact that I didn’t even think of blogging about this.
This is something I deal with so often, what should one do with regular every day simple recipes. Are people searching for it? Do people want to read my post around them and get those recipes. Or it is just too silly to share recipes of your aloo gobhi or baigan ki sabji. I can never really find answers to that and more often than not end up forgetting about them.
This one would have met a similar fate if not for my desperation for post something today and a major block that I am facing. Work has been crazy this year. I have designed the menu for three places (two cafes and one delivery portal). The latest of them being Raw Straw at Kalyan Nagar. Do check it out if you are in that area, they serve all day breakfast, Budha bowls, Smoothies and more. And don’t forget to like their page. I have done about 41 recipe posts on the blog and designed around 60+ recipes for various brand portals.
All this while dealing with crazy stuff at emotional level. Personal life continues to be under emotional turmoil while I deal with the grief of losing dad. Some days pass by fine with me busy with work and home. But other days are so damn tough that I don’t even understand what has hit me. The intensity of emotions is so high and unexpected.
Like on Father’s day, I had a flood of tears. Went to a mall and couldn’t handle the mush, the shopping offers. And this when I never ever wished him for Father’s Day. I would completely forget and one odd time I didn’t forget and actually wished him. We would laugh and didn’t even reply. It left me wondering, why is the day that I never celebrated bothering me so much. Grief has strange ways of manifesting itself and showing up at totally unexpected time and places.
On one side, the work has help me deal with this in a easier way and on the other side I am numb. And cannot think of food since a week. I look at my blog and my fridge every morning to draw some inspiration. To think of something to cook and then write about but zilch. So this afternoon, I decided to just browse through my old food pictures to see if inspiration strikes when I look at one of million food pictures that haven’t made it to the blog.
And that is when I saw this besan ki sabji looking at me. I am practically forcing myself to write this post today and I can see that I have hardly written about food finally. But I think I needed to write this today, it was like words automatically took me to dad and the emotions. Hopefully, this would mean a sort of breaking of the block and the next post will be sooner than this one.